Men are from Mars !!!

Do men actually have that kind of control on us? Even while we keep going about our lives.. multitasking our multiple roles...they can actually make us long for them....subtly...surprisingly... stupidly.....They come to us only when they feel like.. and when they need us ........and they can actually shut out and close if they dont need us for a while... having their own lives...engrossed in their own stuff......going into their own caves ( thats the justification I got from a male friend).....its not just with me..I've seen it with almost all the women that I know..but these men might not even realise how much it affects us ....at times it almost borders on selfishness and being insensitive... and if you ask for anything.. or express your feelings.. its like we have expectations... we are unreasonable.....we are illogical.. we are never happy & satisfied....we always want more....

But how long do you keep reaching out?... how long will you keep trying to give it a shot? .. how long will you keep putting up with things? will they ever know that we are not expecting anything as they assume? and we are surely not being unreasonable in comparing? will they know only after they loose us? or will they ever loose us... ? or are we going to be sticking around..... u know .... like always being there for them? :)

Missing Him !!!

How does she tell him that she is missing him?
When all she can feel are walls around
How does she say that he is her everything?
When she lost her way with her feet aground

How does she know if it’s reaching him?
All the tears that were shed over lonely nights
Would he even know about the inflicting torture?
As she tries to challenge her lonely fights

How will he ever know about her love?
When all he cared about was his feelings that were muted
How will she prove that she is aching for him?
When all her hopes, on him were rooted

How will he ever know, that time is flying by?
And that his silence is slicing through her heart
How will he even know about her eternal wait?
Though it seems to be taking her apart

How does she scream out her pain?
That she lost out her life and tried
How does he come to know about all the times?
When she just stood there and cried

How would he ever know, what he is to her?
How would he ever know that she is missing him???

Looking Back !!!

There was this dialogue in a Julia Robert's movie -'Sleeping with the enemy'...................

"IT NEVER STARTED !!!"

3 little words.. yet I guess they left a lasting impact to be embedded into the memory...

http://maddeningsilences.blogspot.com/2007/12/confused-people-complex-feelings_22.html

Manam Virumbudhe!!!

Here we go with another translation !!! As I listened to this song today from a Tamil Movie made Some time ago ....Manam Virumbudhe from Nerukku Ner..., the thought of translating it started bugging me :) and again I hope it makes some kind of sense ...
http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=AJRdgfH_EDs
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My heart likes you, so much
That my eyes fight back the sleep
Your thoughts spread calm inside,
As your face resides in that heart that’s deep
Oh dear! I seem to be loosing myself
And I don’t even seem to know your identity!

As you gave me that glance
And your face bloomed with a beautiful smile
It’s like a lightening bolt that hit me
Even as I struggled to come out of that
I wonder who pasted your beautiful face
Right across my heart
It’s like a storm that’s passing through my life
Just feel my heart beat to know what I am going through
My heart seems to be longing for you……

I was never drenched by the pouring rains
I never melted with the blazing sun
I had become a rock weathering through the life
But like a tiny wild flower that blooms
On the rocky patch of mighty mountains
This stupid love seems to have come alive
I wonder what the destiny holds in store
As I didn’t know till now, that hearts are made only to love…!

Maddening Silence !!!

Its engulfing...completely taking me back through years...and it keeps hitting me in phases......how many incidents, how many people, how many faces, how many words, how many stupid feelings, how many memories,...... and some ppl do disappear from our lives.... as suddenly as they come into our lives... and all we get left with are memories....and Maddening Silence in the hearts !!!!

Thinking of you..!!!

This is one of my fav songs in Telegu...( from the movie - Gulabi)....so very sweet.. and so very nice..... I had actually tried to translate this into English as one of my poems.. am not sure how far I could succeed..... but do listen & check out the song... :-)

http://in.youtube.com/watch?v=89UeL8F-Dgk

What would you be doing at this time?
Every moment I keep thinking about the same……….

I have left my heart somewhere
And now it appears to have become your shadow.
It refuses to come back to me
But how could this be true?
Neither were you here nor was I there,
How did you work wonders on me…..…?

Your thoughts seem to keep me awake
Into the wee hours of the lonely nights
They drive me into doing everything
Even during the busy times of broad daylights
How do I spend my life?
What should I do to end this grief………..?

Where ever I turn & whatever I do
I always have your presence felt
My eyes don’t seem to be taking in
Anything else other than you
You seem to have cast your charm on me
Ho do I come out of this magic spell…………?

There must be some intoxication
In every letter that forms your name
There must be some numbing passion
In your sweet caring voice
I seem to get lost in your dreams
And every moment I spend in your thoughts

Would you be even thinking about me?
Will you be able to look straight in my eyes?
Judge my feelings and utter few words
Did you ever think about the emotional ties?
Or are you just having a good laugh?
As you see that I am losing my mind.

What would you be doing at this time? Every moment I keep thinking about the same………..

Unconventional !!!!

The messages will keep coming…the signals will keep warning…all possible forces will keep indicating to hold back…but when its in your destiny…is there any way to stop what is bound to happen…As you look down upon your actions….what hits you the most?... what you want to do… or what you end up doing to yourself?…when you feel suddenly vulnerable…what happens to oneself?… does the façade of bravery & strength that was built over the years start to crack under the pressure?… or does it get stronger to support you and shield you more?… as you put forward a step towards the brighter horizons…does your illuminations actually blind the people around you?....if you are a woman with volatile combinations … extreme emotions….a typical unconventional woman…does it get any more difficult to stand up for your own beliefs , feelings and inclinations?

Few Thoughts!!!

It was a while ago... but getting to post now...adding up an atricle on to my blog :)
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It doesn’t make any sense any more… Its like…“Don’t let anyone become a priority in life for whom you are just an option….Open your eyes and see the things as they really are…”

No… it doesn’t make me feel sad or angry or depressed… may be u can say... Over a period of time… I have learnt to look at things more practically…may be more maturely…that if any one is behaving differently… if they are becoming strangers by the day... may be they have their own reasons for being that way… so actually its doesn’t make any sense for us to be breaking our heads over anything... sometimes, I feel, we should stop having any kind of expectations and learn to lead our own lives as long as it goes…. its like we should not depend on any one else ... not even for our happiness …..Or for the inner peace...or the contentment… that at times we keep loosing...

Life changes each day and so do our priorities, but we as humans love to remain in our comfort zone and never accept that there is nothing constant but change. For some of us priorities change and the entire philosophy of living up to some one’s expectation changes. However the story may not be true on the other side…the expectations still lingers… and the longing continues...

At the end of the day the one who has moved on never appreciates or values your expectations as he or she would have done in the past. The net result is the feeling of rejection/dejection and frustration. Never make the mistake of trying to make that person realize how it feels… at the end of the exercise it is trying to expect a horse to fly. Finally what we enter into is (what I term) a “Toxic – Relationship” where bitterness seems to be the life and breath of the association.

You end up being an option like 100s of others where at once you just seemed to be the only solution.

The sooner we accept that any relationship changes with each passing day, the easier it becomes to cope up with the changing face of every relationship in life. Because life is not about how many breaths you take but how many moments that took your breath away!

Considering that every relationship comes with an expiry date… There’s nothing like you loose touch with people… its just that they played their role in your life and silently left the stage ….