A Tear !!!

A tear makes its way down...slowly and steadily...waiting until the emotions actually brim it to the full...God knows where it originated and for what specific reason...but then it slowly slides down... tracing the path that seems to have well defined...carrying with it some million dreams, million hopes, million feelings..... gradually getting absorbed into the texture of the skin... or is it just the fact that it wanted to disappear before it caught anyone's attention... as this tear was precious... it came down when no one was watching... when it was at its most vulnerable phase....when it was important not to shed and waste them on undesirable and unworthy aspects....but yet, it was an amazing display of synchronization...taking into count the multiple emotions that dwell in the heart, considering the numerous things that run through the minds, bringing it out through the eyes which can only reflect true feelings...wetting the cheeks ... finally making its way back to the heart....to probably hide away eternally...!!!

Little Smiles!!!

This week has been a mixed bag of complex feelings! You can say completely different emotions rocked me up...!

Bunch of kindergarten children from SOS Children's village...visited our office as part of our SMILE initiative...such cute children... and how cruel it must be to be parent less in this big bad world.. :-(... but the fun they had and their little smiles... brought tears to my eyes...they just went on to prove how little it takes to be happy... chocolates, balloons..and lot of cheers was all that they needed.. and it left me wondering where we have left behind all those innocent unpolitical lives.... and yes, it also made me realise something else...I never expected most of my colleagues to turn up at the cafeteria... but then.. I guess the children did the magic... the place was packed and the crowd kept cheering even a small rhyme, songs and dance ... and the shy smiles of the children... :-) Thanks guys... Tavant rocks..

The other incident was yesterday... Yes... Indian Independence Day...I had gone to attend the independence day celebrations at the government school where I go on weekends to teach....during the last one year, i have done nothing big for them... just went on Saturdays..to teach English lessons from whatever little I know... and helped them to conduct painting competition as part of independence day activities.... and they wanted me on the stage to give away the prizes to the winners.... It was my first such experience.. and I was not sure if I even deserved being on that stage... but to see the smiles of children who came to receive and thank me made it a worthwhile experience....and then came cultural programs which blew my mind away..... believe me these are under privileged children... most of the smaller children come to school only for the free food they get in the afternoons.... and here they were dancing and singing and giving speeches...... and they were just amazing with whatever little they know... and imagine we spend thousands of rupees training different things... hiring costumes... booking auditoriums ... drinks.. dinner.. dance.. etc etc..phew...

Of late.. it makes me think..... I guess I just want to do more to these small children...give more time, energy, efforts and money... all the other stupid things that we keep doing doesn't make any sense at times... .. may be its time to let go.. and do whatever would bring peace to my mind... time to stop trying to please everyone around.. with plastic smiles... and be among genuine smiles....

Kaleidoscope

Isn’t it a beautiful thing that shows us different designs and patterns and colours?

Sometime I feel its so much like our life... life that’s full of broken pieces that mix and match and form different patterns… pieces that have been brought together from different places…different scenarios…different people…different lives…different pieces - some that have been there for ages….some that suddenly draw your attention… some that sweep you off your feet…some that tell you to slow down… some that wait to cut through to your soul…some that make you wait forever to show their magic…some that refuse to budge from their places…some that show you fake colours and characters … some that make you cry… and all that gets shaken up once in a while …

Hmmm….let me end it here for now.. its time to shake myself to entertain others around…

Completely Wired !!!

Why do I feel lost at times? and I wonder whats consuming my thoughts? In fact as I was mentioning to a friend yesterday, at times, I do feel empty inside. It's as if I am trying to gain access or reach out somewhere and grab all that I want.. something that's being ever elusive...may be I got it all wrong....Of course, I am capable of being stupid at times...

Anyways...right now, the numerous thoughts that run through my mind are like different wires flowing out of my life...may be I am just entangled somewhere amidst them...

Some links that interested me

Aamir Khan:
I ve known him since the time I was in shcool ( I never said he knows me ) :-) ... and I remember all the gals in my class going weak in the knees for the chocolate hero of the QSQT days... It was good to come across his blog recently...Man.. this guy knows to write..or even if some of us keep thinking that he s not doing it himself.. may be this guy knows how to get it written :-) quite insightful I should say...
http://aamirkhan.com/blog.htm

MS Dhoni:
I heard someone call him Airconditioned Captain...should I say I second it ... third it.. fourth it etc etc... He is one cool guy...There s something about him that makes u think...not think abt him alone... but think abt ourselves too... like " what I'd have done if I am in his place" or " what he would have done if he 's in my place"...
The other day, I was telling my husband while we watched a presentation ceremony at the end of a match..." Imagine the grit, determination, focus, direction, command, grooming, looks, language , communication skills, maturity and cool headedness to reach the levels he has acheived from the bylanes of a small town like Ranchi"....May be again my thoughts are clouded..as another friend pointed out to me... " No body is perfect untill u fall in love with them" ... but then, don't we do that all the time...with everyone...so whats the big deal...
Way to go buddy... Yo Dhoni!!!!

http://www.dhoni.org/

Mother Earth!!!

You can feel her in the gentle breeze
As she caresses and passes by your face
She can woo you with her subtle touches
As the birds chirp from trees that stand in grace

You can feel her in the waves that rise
As each wave, with more power comes your way
Isn’t she telling you to keep going? As some day,
The clouding foam will surely wither away

You can feel her in the pouring rain
Or is it just that she is in tears?
As we scatter around to protect ourselves
May be she is protesting and living her own fears…

You can feel her in the Earth that quakes
At times, may be it’s her way to show her power
We may dig deeper to raise the sky high homes
But she is the one who provides us with land to hover

You can feel her in the greenery that we destroy
Oh! Obviously she would be in pain
But, aren’t we looking only at our development around?
Why care for now, when we stand to gain?

You can feel her in the increasing list of endangered species
As we spread our claws and occupy their space
May be she is just waiting for her turn
But when she fights back, we may not win this race…

You can feel her in the disappearing islands
You can feel her in the ice that’s melting down
You can feel her in the heat waves and drowning floods
She may soon disappear and we may not be around even to mourn…
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written on the occassion of World Environment Day - 5th June 08. We had varios initiatives at work, one of which was - Dedicate an article on your personal blog.

Letting Go!!!

There is this strange feeling inside
Will I be able to keep everything aside?
I want to reach out to the skies
Or just go where the wilderness lies
Walk into those far away cold mountains
Would they be able to heat up my frozen heart?
Shedding the alien feelings and dependencies
That years have brought in, all the subtle changes
Can I let go of what goes on in my mind?
Setting myself free of all things that bind…
As I stand alone looking back in time
Will I be able to let go of the memories?
As I try to look ahead at life…
Will I be able to let go of my aspirations?
Harmonizing various roles that I play
How can I let go of the emotions?
As the hopes wither and time flies by
Should I even let go of my dreams?
When all I am left with is I, me and myself
How can I let go of what I am???

My Son !!! :-)

Before he cries... he tries... !!!
(Just trying to borrow a sentence from my friend.. ) :-)

Annual exams... trying times...and I wonder what all must be going through that little mind during that little time... He actually tells me that he gets nervous for the first 10 minutes and then he tells his mind to cool down and relax ... ( his exact words) ....and I don't have a heart to tell him that this is just the beginning in this big bad world :-)

All the best Ajju !!!