Was never about you !

The sleep breaks out into restless dreams some nights,
I don’t know if it’s a longing or anguish of letting go

The tears that stream down, scar my face at times
As they evaporate in the hidden valleys of my heart

The simmering lava of the pain sizzles on some days
Like the silence of the dead volcano waiting to erupt 

The thoughts that keep floating around in my head
are now jumbled as they mix up past and future

It is my mind that’s keeping the love alive
Tiny pieces of my heart are too weak to hope anymore 

As my soul goes about it’s quest of life
It’s my tears, fears, heart, silence and my love that matters

I once thought it was all about you...
Now I know it was not...yes it was never about you
It was always about me !

Backspace!

Loving him was probably the easier part...
She has no answers or reasons for why...
She never thought it would be tough to move on...
How much ever she cries or tries...

It still burns her soul deep inside...
Even after they let go and walked away...
For what she once felt and cherished...
Her heart is still being made to pay...

She constantly stops herself from reaching out to him...
Yet, it kills her to end it without a care...
The phases when he disappears from her life....
Feels as if a slice of her is lost somewhere...

He flows from her thoughts to the dreams...
When she closes her eyes for the night...
Like someone holding on to their last breath to live...
She seems to hold on to his memories tight...

The overwhelming emotions that tug at her heart...
The tears that flow down from her eyes...
The quite hope that still lives in the corners of her life...
The Backspace should have ended this story, if those were lies...