Incomplete Conversations!

Recently read something on FB on the Terribly Tiny Tales page. "Secret messages to the people I love"... Does make you think about all the messages you wanted to convey... all the words that were kept unspoken... all the feelings that were left hidden/ masked, through the years, at some point of time or the other. How interesting it would be to finish some of those incomplete conversations.

Wish to compile all the thoughts of incomplete conversations with so many people I have come across in my life. No gender bias.. no relationships... no specific order...no current status :) just plain conversations. Hopefully will be able  to complete them someday.

Was never about you !

The sleep breaks out into restless dreams some nights,
I don’t know if it’s a longing or anguish of letting go

The tears that stream down, scar my face at times
As they evaporate in the hidden valleys of my heart

The simmering lava of the pain sizzles on some days
Like the silence of the dead volcano waiting to erupt 

The thoughts that keep floating around in my head
are now jumbled as they mix up past and future

It is my mind that’s keeping the love alive
Tiny pieces of my heart are too weak to hope anymore 

As my soul goes about it’s quest of life
It’s my tears, fears, heart, silence and my love that matters

I once thought it was all about you...
Now I know it was not...yes it was never about you
It was always about me !

Meet me

Meet me, before my eyes forget the way you used to look at me

Meet me, before my fingers stop twitching with the feel of your fingers

Meet me, before I stop uttering your name with every splashing memory

Meet me, before your face gets more pixelated every time I think of you

Meet me, before I erase the smiles from my engraved memories

Meet me, before my brain forgets all the echoes of your words

Meet me, before my heart stops believing in love

Meet me, before I finally let you go...

Meet me once, before my memory fails me completely

Sun Shine!

Sheets of rain...
blinding and deafening...
Sometimes your memories hit me that way...
pouring out and silencing...

But then...Sun does come out eventually...

There are millions of things she wants to share with you
but words fail her at times
She wants to tell you everything in her life
but she holds herself back every time
 

Backspace!

Loving him was probably the easier part...
She has no answers or reasons for why...
She never thought it would be tough to move on...
How much ever she cries or tries...

It still burns her soul deep inside...
Even after they let go and walked away...
For what she once felt and cherished...
Her heart is still being made to pay...

She constantly stops herself from reaching out to him...
Yet, it kills her to end it without a care...
The phases when he disappears from her life....
Feels as if a slice of her is lost somewhere...

He flows from her thoughts to the dreams...
When she closes her eyes for the night...
Like someone holding on to their last breath to live...
She seems to hold on to his memories tight...

The overwhelming emotions that tug at her heart...
The tears that flow down from her eyes...
The quite hope that still lives in the corners of her life...
The Backspace should have ended this story, if those were lies...

What can we hear from a heart that's gone silent?
 

Ladies ...Celebrate Yourselves !

They learnt to walk alone 
When paths split and people moved on
They learnt to lift themselves 
When everything around pushed them down 
They learnt to push themselves harder
Every time someone made fun of them
They learnt to scale the heights
When they realised they had it in them
They learnt to drive & fly
So that they can explore their world
They learnt to sing and succeed 
And without care danced in the rain
They learnt to hide their scars
When they saw how beautiful they are
They learnt to let go and leave
When they felt people were differently wired
They learnt to detach their emotions 
As they gradually steeled their hearts
They learnt to stop the tears
The day they realised it wasn't worth it
They learnt to love themselves
Only when their hearts were broken!