My Son !!! :-)

Before he cries... he tries... !!!
(Just trying to borrow a sentence from my friend.. ) :-)

Annual exams... trying times...and I wonder what all must be going through that little mind during that little time... He actually tells me that he gets nervous for the first 10 minutes and then he tells his mind to cool down and relax ... ( his exact words) ....and I don't have a heart to tell him that this is just the beginning in this big bad world :-)

All the best Ajju !!!

Eternal Search ...!

Pasted across all over her memories
He comes to her in broad daylight
Even while she remains wide awake
He lives in her dreams at night

Thousands of lives that she lives with him
In heaven, with all its charms
Through ups and downs, joy & sorrow
He becomes her smile as she cuddles in his arms

Through the vacuum filled loneliness
He is her collage of memories, a modern art
When she misses him more than she can express
He becomes a tear, sliding down to her heart

As her heart goes through the eternal search
Is he very far or just very near?
She wonders what’s holding him back
Can’t he at least make that clear?

She just wonders, how many years more
As she waits for that one last meet
It’s not so easy, as it may appear
But to be with him, her prayers, she repeats

Through unsent mails and unspoken words
As the urge raises to end the game
There’s just this one hope, someday soon,
On her phone screen, would blink, his name…

Love!

What's Love , Darling? If its not self sacrifice....
Just another line I read from a book titled "Atlas Shrugged" by Ian Rand...

Doesn't love come in different forms.. and at different times.... yet.. isn't it very surprising that we actually have only one particular day to celebrate Love... Anyway...I carefully choose this time to post this message... just past mid night ..as one more Valentine's Day quietly passes by...

Love ...is it something that we already have... or is it something that we always want ? or is it something that we cannot accept? or is it something that cannot be expressed? or is it something that cannot be held? or is it something that makes us feel miserable..... when you miss someone more than you can express???

Here's another forward message: When you love someone, say it right then..right there...or the moment just passes by...!!!

Someone out there !!!

This is some thing which was written quite a while ago...The friend who made me write this is quite far away now.... but when she called me recently and mentioned about this poem which summarised her pain and said that it always brought back memories... I don't know why... .. just felt like reposting this one again...

Someone out there !!!

She tried to push him into her past
But everything about him haunts her still
She wished to God that she would forget him
But now she realized, she never will

Her heart seems to have frozen in time
Cobwebs of memories she still does keep
Drying tears do escape at times
Into her dreams, he always creeps

Ripples have become massive waves
And thundering skies all but clear
As she tries to hold that untouched love
Yearnings come, but he is nowhere

This pain appears to live inside her
Even while she tries to stop this nightmare
She wonders, if he still thinks of her
For her, did he ever really care?

He lives in her every tear that falls
Triggers her every poem & prose
She was always like an open book
Probably he chose to shut her close!

Unsent Mails...!!!

Now......., how many of us have such unsent mails stored away??...safely tucked in some folder or the other... either long forgotten or with memories that haunt us all the time...... and how many of us wonder and think about with regret... "I should have sent it at that time".....:-) Sigh...!!!

I wonder why do we even write them.. ? be it official mails, personal mails, private mails, long pending mails, formality sake mails...we write them with utmost care... moving things here and there and making changes.... thanks to Microsoft , spell checks, Thesaurus and copy,paste commands... that we actually need not worry about the numerous crumpled sheets that used to get thrown into the dust bins in the ancient times...

We write them with anxiety, worry, anger, frustrations, hatred, hope, happiness, longing to get things sorted and all other mixed feelings at times... but then when it comes to hitting the send button..... our fingers seem to freeze..or the moment just passes by....:-(

When all we want is to express what we feel, why do we even hesitate and think so much about other person's reaction?

How stupid, right?...!!!

Who knows???

He even refused to take my telephone calls...May be I reminded him of the life that he wanted to forget...I'll tell you one thing though...It hurt...

( A line from the book "The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari")

What can I say???

It did !!!

Miracles do happen !!! :-) ( refer to the post below)

Btw.. heard this song in the morning today... its in Kannada..from the movie " Mungaru Male" ( the only kannada movie that I ever dared to see.... but I just loved it )

Ivanu geliyanalla... gelathi naanu modhale alla.... ( still trying to figure out what it actually means)

Let me know if you got it right....

2008...!!!

I kept wondering about what I should start the year with? what should I write first on this blog to start 2008... but somehow, the beginning was behind me even before I could pull myself out of all the action that was happening around...now I guess I want to leave them behind... all the events that took my life, breathe and sleep away for a while...So...there you go... Year End work, Audits, Appraisals, Half Yearly Exams, Unanswered Questions, Endless Emotions...request all of you to rest in peace ( for a while) :-)

I want to close this with just one sentence...

Never give up on anybody. Miracles happen everyday....

( U can say I am still waiting ...)