For long...

For long, she wasn't sure
As her tears clouded her thoughts
While her heart ached for him
She felt she was the one at fault

For long, she waited for him
To remove the mask and reveal himself
But he was playing a game to win
With tricks to disappear, up his sleeve

For long, she buried her myriad emotions
Yet vulnerabilities made her weak
But how would he even know
As he was detached and never in love

For long, she wanted him back
To take her hand and make her believe
Yet, he was happy in his own world
Failing to realize that he played with someone's heart

For long, she hoped he was real
Not just a fantasy or a midnight dream
Longing for him to take a step forward
But now she knows he just didn't care

I Live

When your eyes find me, I burn
When your silence reaches me, I breathe
When you hold my hand, I survive
When you think about me, I dream
When you talk to me, I smile
When you smile at me, I glow
When you come back to me, I love
When you touch my heart, I live

 

When the love was gone!

Hold my hand lady.. because you are lost

This is not the path you should be treading

And its gone all dark and eerie

Let me help you go back in time

The arms that held you are long gone

As they had to keep the warmth elsewhere

Oh! do not stand there and shiver in the cold

Your heart once frozen, will die a silent death

I can see the darkness in your eyes

Must be the despair of looking for someone

Bring back the sparkle to light our trail

As we have to go back a long way

Let go of your silence and screech a bit

At least it would scare away the demons

The beasts are following us close behind

They wait to gobble you the moment you fall

Do not wait for someone who left you

They have moved on and gone much ahead

beyond the time and space where your words can reach

Let's dig a quick hole to bury your burden of love

Once you are safe, let's send a prayer up

Its not for us to judge if the journey was worth it

But remember that you had the strength to walk back again

When the love was gone and you stood there alone

Where do I find you in my life???

Where do I find you in my life?

Should I search for you in my dreams...

Or in all the words that got spoken...

Or in all the tears that got shed...

Or will you be in the silence of my heart...

Or in my eyes that turn red all the time...

Should I look for you in my empty mind...

Or in every breathe I take that calls your name...

Or in the lines of my palm which are wired...

Or will you be hidden in my soul deep inside...

Or in my senses that feel your presence everywhere...

Should I trace you to the corners of your world....

Or in my bits and pieces of memories that are left...

Or in all the silent prayers that I send up...

Or will you be behind the closed doors of my destiny...

Or in my love that is hurting me from within...

Where do I find you? Or will I ever find you ???

Love again!

Why do I always write about Love...
What is there in it, that keeps pulling me back to this word...
How do you handle and hold on to love...
When all you have is bundled into few words...
How do you hide your smiles and tears...
When love is something that comes from the heart...
What can you do with all the memories...
When they want you to run back in time and years...
How can you reach out to touch the heart...
Which once made your face light up thousand times...
Where can you search for all those hugs... 
Hugs that made you long for those moments...
How do you tell him that you still love him...
When you are not sure if he's still holding on to your heart...

Be Strong, Girl !

Somewhere deep inside, 
her voice is screaming to be heard
She tries to smile away
even while the eyes, at times turn red
Multiple things move through her mind
creating a web of thoughts
Caught somewhere in between, 
is her heart, even as she unfolds the knots
The joyous moments, the teasing fun
the sharing of glances, she takes in her stride
But as she tries to unmask everyone around
all she wants to do is to hide
While she bravely fights the world
vulnerabilities show in her eyes
She knew she was becoming another person
just seeing through all the lies
Let me take her hand in mine 
and let her pass this phase of life
Let me let her know that
she is not alone in her inner strife
Let me wipe away her tears
and help my friend to mend her broken heart
Let me hug her tight tonight
as finding love was probably not her art
Let her hurt be withered away
and let me tell her it was never hers
Let her bury those memories too
as they hurt every time the fire stirs
Let her silence be a shield
embracing her slacking mind
Let those smiles come back to her
and some peace, let her find
Let me slowly whisper to her
that while her heart is left ashen in the burning hearth
Let her be strong
to fight only those unknown battles which are worth!

Random words !

The nights we spent talking late

The smiles you brought on to my lips 

The dreams you got me to see

The hugs you sent in the air

The tears that flowed down my eyes 

The years that flew only with your thoughts 

The hopes that you left behind in my heart 

The memories that bring you back into my life

The love that won't let you go....

Do you ???

At times, when I reach out to you
do you see my outstretched hand?
Those moments when my eyes search for you
does your heart feel my presense around?

Sometimes, when the memories make me smile
do you recollect the weird things we did?
And, while I lie awake with your thoughts
do you see me in your dreams?

Often, when I long for your arms around me
do you know how hurt I feel inside?
And, while my heart has now gone silent
do you still think of all that we spoke late into the nights? 

Few times, when my eyes shed some tears
do you remember the closeness we shared ?
And, even while we fight it out in this world
do you believe we belong to another life?