I Live

When your eyes find me, I burn
When your silence reaches me, I breathe
When you hold my hand, I survive
When you think about me, I dream
When you talk to me, I smile
When you smile at me, I glow
When you come back to me, I love
When you touch my heart, I live

 

Bits & Pieces of Love!

There are times when she looks at you,
From across the distance or sitting next to you,
Remembering all your stupid jokes...
Don't make her laugh again...

There are times when she hears you around,
Even while she chides her jealous heart,
Remembering all the sweet things you did...
Don't make her smile again...

There are times when she longs for you,
Reaches out for that very elusive love,
Remembering how close you were...
Don't make her cry again...

There are times when she lets go of you,
When she knows that its never going to be the same again,
Remembering all your forever promises...
Don't make her fall in love with you again...

Dream !

Do you ???

At times, when I reach out to you
do you see my outstretched hand?
Those moments when my eyes search for you
does your heart feel my presense around?

Sometimes, when the memories make me smile
do you recollect the weird things we did?
And, while I lie awake with your thoughts
do you see me in your dreams?

Often, when I long for your arms around me
do you know how hurt I feel inside?
And, while my heart has now gone silent
do you still think of all that we spoke late into the nights? 

Few times, when my eyes shed some tears
do you remember the closeness we shared ?
And, even while we fight it out in this world
do you believe we belong to another life?

Love that cannot be killed !

It cannot be stopped
It cannot be hidden
It let's the memories haunt you forever
It fails you every time you reach out
It forgives even when taken for granted
It cannot be held back
It keeps you hoping for miracles
It will not allow you to express
It tortures when you suppress
It makes you blind to all the faults
It makes you weep in the night
It lives in all your hopes
It makes you smile even when crying
It makes you feel stupid
It lets you be humiliated
It puts you down as vulnerable
It has you bound by the chains
It lets you fly high in the skies
It makes you long for just a glance
It takes you places just for a moment of togetherness
It tickles your very senses to the bone
It sizzles in the silence of your thoughts
It doesn't let you sleep
It flows out in your sleepless dreams
Love that cannot be killed
Even when you try and want to .......

Tadap Tadap...

As you come across friends who open up and pour out their pain, and when you try to capture the feelings,  sometimes you just have to go with the flow. ... take care girl... !

It was a little wish to smile
But, now the lips don’t curve any more
It was a small effort to fly
But, wings got broken even before taking to skies
It was a tiny hope to hold it in the palm
But it seems to have slipped through the fingers into the sand
It was an effort to gather all the beautiful memories
But, all they left behind are painful reminders
It was a short time to share and talk
But now, the inner tongue has been sliced and muted
It was a slender effort to love
But, the heart came crashing down with the disqualifications
It was a tiny little prayer to live again
But then, life seems to have gone out of this life...

Sometimes...

Sometimes...
The fog on the mirror masks up the thoughts
As the droplets stream down slowly
Is the mirror shedding tears along with me..I wouldn't know...
But I wish I could see it smile more often ...

Sometimes...
The blazing moon reaches out across the skies
so close yet so very far away
Is the moon shining some light in the darkness..I wouldn't know...
But I wish I could hold it close in my palm more often...

Sometimes...
The untiring waves break the shore
as the tides of times gobble up the sands
Is the sea sending me a message of silence...I wouldn't know...
But I wish I could walk on the seaside more often...

           

Few more thoughts...

Dear Heart...this one's for you...

Way back in  October 2008 I had written a blog post on similar lines .... This one probably begins where the last one ended.... that every relationship comes with an expiry date...

http://maddeningsilences.blogspot.in/2008/10/few-thoughts.html

Yet the greatest relationships are the ones you never expected to be in. The ones where you continue to be involved even when the significant other slowly starts to walk the other way. The ones where you tend to lose yourself in the process, yet you find yourself as an individual. The ones where it just makes you wonder how life tends to change people over the days/ months/ years.

The extreme emotions, the entangling feelings that suffocate you at times, the highs and lows , the excitement of belonging to someone but yet in the same breath the echoing silence of loneliness....The relationships that can bring you back to life in a minute, but kill you in the very next.

The relationships these days are so dynamic that the equations change dramatically that too pretty fast. People tend to be on so many different tangents that it becomes difficult for them to slow down or wait for you or care to be there for you. So for someone who is probably hanging on to something which is long gone, or was never there in the first place, it is not going to be an easy preposition to survive in such taxing scenarios.

The signs will keep coming, sometimes you smile, sometimes you cry but all the while, the dreams, hopes and wishes of someday will gradually start to die from deep within.

What ultimately makes sense is belief in you and you alone. You got to keep telling yourself that you are much stronger than this. You got to look ahead and keep moving even if it means all alone.