For long...

For long, she wasn't sure
As her tears clouded her thoughts
While her heart ached for him
She felt she was the one at fault

For long, she waited for him
To remove the mask and reveal himself
But he was playing a game to win
With tricks to disappear, up his sleeve

For long, she buried her myriad emotions
Yet vulnerabilities made her weak
But how would he even know
As he was detached and never in love

For long, she wanted him back
To take her hand and make her believe
Yet, he was happy in his own world
Failing to realize that he played with someone's heart

For long, she hoped he was real
Not just a fantasy or a midnight dream
Longing for him to take a step forward
But now she knows he just didn't care

Where do I find you in my life???

Where do I find you in my life?

Should I search for you in my dreams...

Or in all the words that got spoken...

Or in all the tears that got shed...

Or will you be in the silence of my heart...

Or in my eyes that turn red all the time...

Should I look for you in my empty mind...

Or in every breathe I take that calls your name...

Or in the lines of my palm which are wired...

Or will you be hidden in my soul deep inside...

Or in my senses that feel your presence everywhere...

Should I trace you to the corners of your world....

Or in my bits and pieces of memories that are left...

Or in all the silent prayers that I send up...

Or will you be behind the closed doors of my destiny...

Or in my love that is hurting me from within...

Where do I find you? Or will I ever find you ???

Dream !

Do you ???

At times, when I reach out to you
do you see my outstretched hand?
Those moments when my eyes search for you
does your heart feel my presense around?

Sometimes, when the memories make me smile
do you recollect the weird things we did?
And, while I lie awake with your thoughts
do you see me in your dreams?

Often, when I long for your arms around me
do you know how hurt I feel inside?
And, while my heart has now gone silent
do you still think of all that we spoke late into the nights? 

Few times, when my eyes shed some tears
do you remember the closeness we shared ?
And, even while we fight it out in this world
do you believe we belong to another life?