Do you?

Sometimes when you close your eyes for the night, 

do you shed tears remembering everyone whom you lost on the way?

Sometimes when you are lost in the moment, 

do you yearn for someone with whom you had shared lives in your mind?

Sometimes when you let go of people though it hurts you, 

do you still think of all the happy smiles they gave? 

Sometimes when you know someone wronged you, 

do you now realize how much you trusted them? 

Sometimes even when you keep moving forward, 

do you know your heart is still holding you back?

Draupadi's Soul !

Of all the books I have read, " Palace of Illusions" by Chitra Banerjee continues to be so close to my heart. As it traces the journey of Mahabharat from Draupadi's perspective, it reflects the complex thoughts, wishes, emotions, hopes, vengeance, frustrations, manipulations that were part of the legendary story. Every time I read the book, it kept compelling me to connect with Draupadi's soul! I am sure every women would be able to relate to at least a part of her journey!

Shades of life were always changing...

Even while she tried to add the colours to her canvas...

Scores of people scripted her course of life...

She walked the ways the paths took her along...

Through masks that came with ease...

She learnt to shield her wishes and thoughts...

While her smiles brightened the world around...

The darkened alleys of her heart were shrouded in loneliness...

Everything around was happening by design...

But her eyes kept longing for a heart to share...

Words of wisdom kept coming from Krishna...
Her silence was filled with his beautiful music...

Clouds of disillusionment crowded her tales...

But she  constantly pursued her quest for happiness...

She probably had oceans hidden inside her heart...

Yet she kept looking for drops to fill her soul...!

Incomplete Conversations!

Recently read something on FB on the Terribly Tiny Tales page. "Secret messages to the people I love"... Does make you think about all the messages you wanted to convey... all the words that were kept unspoken... all the feelings that were left hidden/ masked, through the years, at some point of time or the other. How interesting it would be to finish some of those incomplete conversations.

Wish to compile all the thoughts of incomplete conversations with so many people I have come across in my life. No gender bias.. no relationships... no specific order...no current status :) just plain conversations. Hopefully will be able  to complete them someday.

Was never about you !

The sleep breaks out into restless dreams some nights,
I don’t know if it’s a longing or anguish of letting go

The tears that stream down, scar my face at times
As they evaporate in the hidden valleys of my heart

The simmering lava of the pain sizzles on some days
Like the silence of the dead volcano waiting to erupt 

The thoughts that keep floating around in my head
are now jumbled as they mix up past and future

It is my mind that’s keeping the love alive
Tiny pieces of my heart are too weak to hope anymore 

As my soul goes about it’s quest of life
It’s my tears, fears, heart, silence and my love that matters

I once thought it was all about you...
Now I know it was not...yes it was never about you
It was always about me !

Meet me

Meet me, before my eyes forget the way you used to look at me

Meet me, before my fingers stop twitching with the feel of your fingers

Meet me, before I stop uttering your name with every splashing memory

Meet me, before your face gets more pixelated every time I think of you

Meet me, before I erase the smiles from my engraved memories

Meet me, before my brain forgets all the echoes of your words

Meet me, before my heart stops believing in love

Meet me, before I finally let you go...

Meet me once, before my memory fails me completely