After Thoughts!!!!

She feels at peace with herself
As she tries to shield her heart
Shredding the possessiveness
Guarding her senses, regaining the poise
Enjoying the pain that follows
The heart that lost all its wishes

She always watched you at a distance
While you breezed through her life
She always waited for a smile from you
Of course it must’ve hurt, when she was ignored
She looks back at the bonding that got created
Failing to understand why it all had to go

She used to be flooded by a feeling of belongingness
She cared for everything as if it belonged to her
But, as she lost you gradually, she lost herself
Wasn’t she becoming a different person? And at last,
She has also shed her feelings of being happy,
Probably, that was all she had, since she met you.

Guess, she is not supposed to feel so good
As the feelings she had, always failed
To win over her disqualifications
Is the love scared of her or is she scared of love?
As she walks alone, the Sun burns down on her,
Is it trying to burn her heart, she wouldn’t know?

Doesn’t she deserve the happiness of love?
Those elated moments filled with joy so pure
She thought would always be there for her
But now, she is not really so sure...
Your memories seem to be hitting her as waves
Are they pulling the sand from under her feet, she wouldn’t know?

She feels detached from her own self
Mending a heart that trusted everything
Memories flash by, frame by frame
Making her feel foolish at her beliefs
That dreams & illusions would someday come true
But now, is she at peace with herself, she wouldn’t know???